Wednesday, September 19, 2012

The Kind of Thing I Would Usually Tweet

That moment when you've been holding yourself together for so long that suddenly, you're sitting in the lobby of a Mexican restaurant, waiting for your takeout after work, when the tears that you've been staving off since during morning rounds return with a vengeance. And then, you're texting your boyfriend to just leave you the hell alone because no one understands and you don't want to talk about it and you don't want to see him.  Then, the waitress walks by and gives you that awkward half-smile of, "Oh no, that doctor looking person is legit melting down in front of me during the dinner rush. Should I do something?" You want to wipe the tears from your face and not look like the hot mess that you feel like, but your tissues and napkins are in your white coat in the car, so you just Purell your hands and use your fingers to dab your face. You avoid eye contact with the patrons walking out the door. Then finally, the manager walks over, hands you your food and says to be careful, it's hot.  You smile, like you always do, take your food, and walk out thinking that you didn't tip these people nearly enough for the show.

(I needed a few more than 140 characters.)

13 comments:

Old MD Girl said...

Aw hon! I hope your night was better than your day sounded! Hang in there!

Solitary Diner said...

Big hugs from someone who understands all too well. And good on you for making it to the evening before the tears started. I've cried on morning rounds. More than once. Hope it gets better soon.

The Wittys said...

Sorry you had a rough day! I've cried many a time in restaurants...and in my bosses office...i'm sort of an easy crier! Hope tomorrow is better!

as said...

I've followed you for awhile, but I'm not a comment type of person, but this compelled me to comment b/c I absolutely 100% GET IT! That said, everyone has been there and you are not alone in that frustration and agony of just let this day END. Hugs and know there are others out there :)

Doc V said...

Whatever it is I hope things get better.

I really hate that bad things happen to good people...

Jennifer said...

I had a good cry last night, it happens to all of us. Residency is tough on both parties in our household. He's stressed and overworked at times and I get lonely and frustrated, sometimes it all just spills out at once. It happens to us all, and IT WILL GET BETTER!!! Tomorrow is a new day.

MS3 said...

I'm sorry, girl :(. I hate those kind of days... It's okay to let it all out. Hang in there!

xoxb said...

*hug*

Dr Erhumu - twitter@drerhumu said...

Hang in there - this too shall pass.

Red Stethoscope said...

Thanks everyone.

C said...

Aw those days are hard... I hope everything gets better.

From A Doctors Wife said...

I am so sorry. It is healthy to let it all go, even while waiting for your take out:-) Better days are ahead.

Zazzy Episodes said...

Aww Red I hope things feel better now that you got that out of your system.

Take a deep breath and slap your face really hard. You might just stun yourself into distracting from the way you truly feel.

Either that or you'll shock yourself into turning the water works back on and continue where you left off:-)